Beyond ridicilous

Well, weigh-in yesterday....and I'm now 16st 7lb.....7lb gained in 2 weeks....flippin heck!

Fell off the wagon

Yes, I've not posted in ages....and I've been hiding from myself....and kicking my own backside....but well, what can I do.

We got snowed in really really really badly and no way of getting to the shops....or getting something healthy out of them for that matter lol. Of course I could have tried harder....but I didn't....and of course I'll pay the price for it on the scales. But I've decided as long as I don't get over the 16st I'll just poddle along till this whole christmas malake is over and then have a fresh start....

So there....

Tired and depressed

Woke up this morning...well, can't really say that I'm awake, I'm just so tired...I want to go back home to bed and have a good ol' cry in bed. I constantly have the urge to tear up.

I had applied for the district managers position for East Scotland with SW and already had a chat with one of the managers last week. All seemed well, and I was encouraged to apply, so I did. I was very very exited about this position, because I don't think there is anything better than to work for a company that you truly believe in. Anyway, got a reply that my application would be forwarded for shortlisting last week. However, yesterday I came home from work and had a letter from SW....the usual bog standard.....sorry, you were unsuccessful.

I could have cried....well, actually I did. I really wanted this job. I'm soooo annoyed. I really thought I stood a chance....but I didn't even make it to a face to face interview. This really sucks.

Needless to say I really wanted to have a good old comfort eating session, but luckily I didn't. Had my soup as planned and then went to the gym. My morning weight was no were close to where I want it to be, 15st 10 1/2lb to be exact, but heyho, nothing I can do about it. Will go to the gym after work today and hopefully can keep it at that for tonights weigh-in. Having a fruity brekkie and brought leftover soup for lunch.

In hiding

I haven't posted in a week....I just couldn't face it....I can hardly face myself at the moment. I feel so lazy and unmotivated. I don't even know why. Haven't been to the gym in a week! I've sticked to the plan mostly, but had some slipups....tomorrow is weigh-in day. Yesterday my AM weight was 15st 9lb....today 15st 11 1/2lb....and to be honest, I have no idea why. I've been on plan 100% yesterday and yet I've gained. I'm clueless. I don't want to have another gain tomorrow...I couldn't face it.

So tonight I'll go to the gym, even if it kills me. The plan is to make tomato soup for dinner. And I'll defo stick to that as well. No naughtyness in the house, so hopefully hopefully the scale is tipping towards the 15st 9lb again tomorrow morning.

Day two

AM weight: I forgot!

Well, yesterday went rather well. Got home from work, made my cheesy pasta and stayed away from the treats. Did go to Body Combat at night, but didn't manage to go to the gym beforehand. Oh well, better something than nothing.

Had my fruity breakfast and Batchelors Supernoodles for lunch. Also made some potoatosalad last night, which I'm nibbling on throughout the day. Dinner tonight will be either leftovers of the salad or cheesy pasta again.

Plan is to go to the gym tonight, lets see if I succeed.

WTF is wrong with me????

AM weight: 15st 10 1/4lb

Well, after hitting my weight at 15st 11lb yesterday, I've decided it's enough. How can I gain all this weight again? I'm so annoyed with myself. So from today on, I'll change my strategy.

I will have my normal fruity breakfast as usual, but if I get peckish, I'll have some Ryvita with Laughing Cow Cheese as a mid morning snack. Today, this worked fine, no crazy hungerpangs mid morning. For lunch I had Batchelor Super Noodles. Dinner I have planned is Cheesy Pasta (2 HEA choices). And definetely will go to the gym tonight. I know it's rotten outside and it will be a challenge, but I just need to drag my fat bum out!

Fat Cow

AM weight: 15st 7 3/4lb




Thats what I feel like.....my weigh-in last night was shocking...15st 11lb....thats another 1/2lb on....I could cry. But its's my own fault really.....didn't go to the gym yesterday.

I have no motivation, just got myself a portion of chips.....I give up, I really do!